“My mind is getting in the way, I can’t feel what my body say.”
It’s a frightening time for young celebrities, as an epidemic of addiction and substance abuse is claiming lives in Hollywood at an astonishing rate.
Over the course of the past year, a number of promising lives have been lost or forever changed by opioids and other prescription pills, and it seems that there’s no solution to the problem in sight.
In July, Demi Lovato’s near-fatal overdose left fans praying for the singer’s recovery.
(Lovato recently celebrated 90 days of sobriety.)
The death of Mac Miller in September stunned the hip-hop world and left many of his fellow artists thinking twice about lyrics and lifestyles that glorify substance abuse.
One such artist is Lil Xan.
Xan is so steeped in modern hip-hop drug culture that his stage name is a reference to his former substance of choice.
The 23-year-old recently opened up to TMZ in a surprisingly candid new interview in which he discusses his conflicted feelings toward drugs and the music that glorifies them.
The rapper says he’s kicked his addiction to Xanax, but is still “weaning” himself away from other pills.
In the interview, Xan reveals that he sold drugs before making it big in music.
But he also insists he was a drug dealer with a conscience and quit dealing when the often-fatal Fentanyl hit the scene.
“My friends were taking it; they were puking. I was like I can’t … I’m out the game,” Xan says of his decision to retire from dealing and focus on music.
Xan says that like Demi, he’s capable of long periods of sobriety, but notes that he is currently off the wagon.
“I relapsed, and that’s common … Any other addict would understand that sh-t just happens,” he tells TMZ.
“You just relapse. You don’t want to. It’s a process. You need treatment and help, and sometimes that doesn’t even help.”
“It has to come from within. That’s what I’ve learned,” Xan says.
“I’ve gone periods of like six months clean of everything. And that was because of me. I wanted to be clean.”
When the interviewer states that Xan is “clean now,” he corrects her:
“I’m not completely clean. Off Xanax, yes, but I’m still weaning off Norcos [a brand of codeine-based painkiller],” he says.
Xan says he is currently not in rehab, but is living in seclusion “in the forest.”
He adds that he plans to remain in hiding until the release of his upcoming album, which he has described as a tribute to his “hero,” Mac Miller.
We wish Lil Xan all the best in his recovery.
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It seems very possible that Jen Harley recently pounded Ronnie Ortiz-Magro in the face.
Despite this allegation, however, the troubled reality stars continue to pound each other.
In the bedroom, we mean.
Just a few days ago, Ronnie shared a close-up of his face and his left eye, both of which appeared to be battered and bruised.
Along with this disturbing image, the veteran Jersey Shore cast member wrote as a caption:
“Sorry for lying to my friends and family. Sometimes u love people so much [you’re] willing to lie and the hurt the people that love u the most to protect.”
Translation: Harley beat the crap out of me again.
Right? How else were we meant to interpret this message and this picture?
A few months prior to Ronnie’s apparent assault reveal, he had been dragged down the street from a car that Harley was driving./
No, really: HARLEY DRAGGED RONNIE DOWN THE STREET BY HER CAR.
And just a short time before this ridiculous incident, Harley was banned from a Las Vegas hotel after she (allegedly) got physical with Ronnie on a different occasion.
And these altercations followed an ugly exchange between Ronnie and Harley on social media, as documented below.
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Shortly after Ronnie shared the back eye picture, Jen replied to a fan on social media who asked about her having future contact with her baby daddy, writing:
“No I will never speak to him again. I’ve kept my mouth shut for to (sic) long.”
That was on Friday.
On Saturday, Harley and Ronnie were spotted out and about, chilling with friends on a boat.
The MTV star himself posted clips aboard the boat of him and Harley, the latter of whom was donning a pink fluoro bikini, as you can see in the first picture in this article above.
According to TMZ, meanwhile, the effed up twosome was in Florida, celebrating Harley’s birthday with a handful of loved ones.
On Sunday, Jen shared a series of text messages between her and Ortiz-Magro on Instagram, saying along with them: “the truth about the Black eye lol.”
“I’ll fix it baby,” a message allegedly from Ronnie reads, assing:
“U want me to post something say that I reacted out of anger and that it was a double sided incendet (sic) and we are working at making things better so we are never back in that situation again.”
“Lmfao. Nahhhh so it look like your so scared of me you had too,” Harley responded, adding that Ortiz-Magro made her “wanna puke right now.”
We can’t figure these two out, that’s for certain.
But we do know they have a six-month old daughter at home and better shape the hecl up for her sake.
Harley and Ortiz-Magro, who started dating in July 2017, have documented their tumultuous relationship on social media and on Jersey Shore: Family Vacation.
You can tune in each Thursday night to see how this awful relationship plays out.
Just consider yourself warned:
It will be funny at first and then, once you realize they are parents of a baby girl, it will be downright nauseating and awful to witness.
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