Demi Lovato: I Wanted to Kill Myself at Age 7

Demi Lovato is as open as any celebrity out there.

Which is pretty incredible, really, when you think about all this singer has gone through in her relatively short life.

As Lovato has relayed in several interviews over the years, she has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder… she’s been addicted to hard drugs… and she has an eating disorder.

But there’s even more the artist has not yet revealed, according to Lovato herself, who sat down this week and talked to Dr. Phil about the true extent of her depression and anxiety.

“The very first time I was suicidal was when I was seven. I had this fascination with death,” the singer told the famous psychologist in a Q&A set to air on Tuesday afternoon.

This is the first time we can recall Demi speaking so candidly about wanting to take her own life.

And at the young age of seven?!? Wow.

“I have experienced things that I have not talked about, and I don’t know if I ever will talk about,” Lovato added.

“But at seven, I knew that if I were to take my own life, that the pain would end.”

That’s simply stunning and very sad, isn’t it?

Or very inspiring, one could also say, considering Lovato just recently celebrated six years of sobriety and has worked so very hard to overcome these issues.

Lovato told Dr.Phil that the thought of suicide “came back when I was bullied” later in life, and also during multiple other periods when she was dealing with emotional turmoil and trauma.

Despite (or maybe due to?) being in the spotlight for so long, Lovato has not had it easy.

“It came back several times – when I was struggling with depression, my bipolar disorder,” she explains.

“And there was a while there when my mom was afraid to wake me up in the mornings because she didn’t know if she opened the door if I would be alive or not. Because every time I cut, it got deeper and deeper.”

Indeed, Lovato has talked in the past about how she was a cutter.

She mutilated her own body out of anger and low self-esteem.

The singer is currently on tour, however, and seems to be doing very well. Heck, she is doing very well.

But she knows she will never be cured of all that ails her, specifically when it comes to one particular disease.

“I think the everlasting addiction in my life has been food. My eating disorder started when I was very young. That’s something that I deal with on a daily basis.

“It’s kind of the last thing to go.”

Again, this is a topic Lovato has often delved into at length.

“I feel like I’ve conquered my addiction and alcoholism, where I don’t even think about it anymore,” she says, adding:

“But my struggles with my food issues are something that I still deal with. But I’m growing, and I’m in a really good place today.”

We’re so very glad to hear it.

Demi also touches on her father in this interview, how he passed away when she was 20 years old and how she wrote a special song for him.

She’s singing it on tour these days as a way to push through the pain and to pay him tribute.

“This is the first tour that I’ve performed it on. I’ve only sang it live three times,” she concludes.

“I get through it OK. But I realize that I can’t just shut out this performance. I can’t just not play a song. The healing is through performing it.”

We continue to wish Demi Lovato all the best.


Demi Lovato Celebrates 6 Years of Sobriety, Reveals Encounter With “B-tchy” Celebrity

At just 25, Demi Lovato has enjoyed higher highs and endured lower lows than most people will experience in a lifetime.

The singer rose to fame while still in her teens, but the pressures of such sudden success quickly took a toll.

Lovato’s struggles with addiction could have cost her career – and so much more.

But at her lowest point, Demi was strong enough to seek help, and that has made all the difference.

These days, Lovato is sober, and her music is more popular than ever.

More importantly, however, Demi is happy, healthy, and willing to publicly share the details of her painful struggle in hopes of helping others.

Earlier this week, Demi marked another year of clean living, and she celebrated the occasion on social media:

“Just officially turned 6 years sober,” Lovato tweeted.

“So grateful for another year of joy, health and happiness. It IS possible. 

While Lovato maintains that the decision to get sober was the most important one she’s ever made, she admits that she still struggles from time to time.

In a recent interview with Entertainment Tonight, Demi revealed that she came dangerously close to falling off the wagon at the 2016 Met Gala.

“I had a terrible experience,” Lovato recalls.

“This one celebrity was a complete b-tch and was miserable to be around. It was very cliquey. I remember being so uncomfortable that I wanted to drink.”

Demi says the experience was an eye-opening one that caused her to realize she has more in common with fellow former addicts than she does with many of her fellow celebs:

“I changed my clothes, but I still had my diamonds on — millions of dollars of diamonds on in an AA meeting,” she adds.

“And I related more to the homeless people in that meeting who struggled with the same struggles that I deal with than the people at the Met Gala.”

Lovato says it’s no exaggeration to say that her sobriety is quite literally a matter of life and death,

“What keeps me on this path is there’s a drive that I have to stay sober because I know that my life depends on it,” she tells ET.

“If I would have continued down that road, I don’t know if I’d be here today.”

Well, her loved ones and her millions of fans are certainly glad she chose a different path before it was too late.

Our sincere congrats go out to Demi on the achievement of a lifetime.