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August Ames Toxicology Report: Late Porn Star Had Cocaine, Other Drugs in Her System

In early December of 2017, porn actress August Ames committed suicide following a series of controversial tweets that nearly tore the porn industry in half.

This tragedy was mourned by both her supporters and her detractors, but some pointed the finger at the online backlash that she had received.

Now, the toxicology report has finally been completed. What light does this shed on her death at 23?

It all started with a tweet, when August Ames shared what she believed was a warning to fellow porn actresses:

“whichever (lady) performer is replacing me tomorrow for @EroticaXNews , you’re shooting with a guy who has shot gay porn, just to let cha know. BS is all I can say? Do agents really not care about who they’re representing? #ladirect I do my homework for my body.”

Yes, she was wrong, and we’ll get into that in a moment. But that does not in any way make her death less tragic.

She went on to defend herself from the backlash.

“NOT homophobic. Most girls don’t shoot with guys who have shot gay porn, for safety. That’s just how it is with me. I’m not putting my body at risk, i don’t know what they do in their private lives.”

It’s no secret that the porn industry can be miserable for women. It sounds like it might not be that fun for bisexual men, either.

“How am I homophobic if I myself am attracted to women? Not wanting to have sex with gay men is not homophobic; they don’t want to have sex with me either. So byeeeee.”

August then tried to slam people, particularly within her own industry, for what she perceived as hypocrisy and mixed messages.

“‘Choose who YOU want to work with’ ‘Don’t do anything that makes you feel uncomfortable’ ‘Share your thoughts’ Hmm. Well, I did all three, and twitter took a dump on me.”

For the record, though that is all good advise, if the thoughts that you want to share are bigoted or even just appear to be so, it might be a good time to not speak up. But, again, we sincerely wish that she were still alive.

“I don’t have anything to apologize for! Apologizing for taking extra steps to ensue that my body stays safe? F–k you guys attacking me when none of my intentions were malicious. I fucking love the gay community! What the f–k ever! I CHOOSE who I have inside my body. No hate.”

She tweeted something not unusual to see on a porn star’s Twitter, but some wondered if it was how she was coping with the backlash:

“Coffee & weed.”

Finally, August Ames sounded fed up:

“F–k y’all.”

The backlash was intense. Too intense, in fact.

Obviously, everyone has the right to refuse sex to anyone, at any time, for any reason.

But people can also have some truly terrible reasons.

Some porn stars will refuse to film scenes with black men for fear that it will “lower their value” as performers and cause them to get paid less in the future.

(Yeah, it’s horrifying — that’s perhaps less of an indictment of the women who decline than it is of all of society for being racist)

In this case, we’re talking about a bigoted belief that a man who films porn with other men but undergoes the same STI screening that she does — is any more likely than any other porn star to have HIV.

It’s not true — anal sex increases the risk of HIV transmission relative to venereal intercourse, but obviously that doesn’t preclude straight porn stars from getting infected. Particularly those who film anal scenes with women.

At what point does backlash amount to bullying? That can be difficult to determine.

But August Ames’ cause of death was suicide by hanging. It is difficult to look at her tragic death as anything but the consequence of the controversy that preceded it.

Remember when we suggested that her toxicology report might shed further light on her state of mind when she took her own life?

The Blast obtained August Ames’ toxicology report, and her system contained signs that she had taken:

-Sertraline (generic Zoloft, a pretty standard SSRI antidepressant)

-Alprazolam (which is just generic Xanax)

-Cocaine

-Marijuana

-Seizure medication

Coupled with the knowledge that August Ames had attempted suicide in the past, it appears that the controversy and ensuing backlash were related to her death … but hardly the sole cause.

When someone struggles with suicidal depression, they don’t always need an excuse. One might conclude that the controversy was a catalyst, but that’s a guess at the most.

From that list of drugs, it appears that August was using both prescription and non-prescription means of attempting to combat her anxiety (with alprazolam and marijuana and likely the seizure medication) and to beat a particularly bad depressive episode (the sertraline and cocaine).

We all long for a day when people hold more enlightened views. We also long for a day when people on social media understand nuance and compassion and can show a modicum of chill.

The backlash could have been a discussion. Perhaps then, August Ames wouldn’t have died at 23.

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Teen Mom OG Recap: System Overload

Ryan Edwards’ drug use was at the forefront of Teen Mom OG Season 5 Episode 4 Monday night, continuing a troubling recent storyline.

Maci Bookout wanted to make sure Bentley’s father was truly clean before any reunion took place, and she had reason to be skeptical.

If you watch Teen Mom OG online, or follow any of the drama on social media, you know that Edwards’ drug use has been a big factor.

Ryan, fresh off his 30-day rehab stay, began Teen Mom OG Season 5 Episode 4 speaking to a friend about his recovery process.

“It’s a little tough sometimes,” Edwards confessed, both mentally and “just trying to get through the withdrawals and stuff.”

Meanwhile, Maci Bookout spoke to a friend about her issues with Ryan, and how she’s sending Edwards a letter via an attorney.

This letter, Bookout says, will spell out the stipulations needed for the oft-troubled Edwards to visit Bentley, the couple’s son.

Maci then read her text to Ryan aloud.

“I’ll need you to pass a drug screening, hair and urine, at my expense immediately prior to you taking [Bentley] for a visit,” she said.

Later she said that Ryan had not responded.

For their part, Ryan’s parents, Larry and Jen Edwards, said they were worried about him: “We knew there was something going on.”

But, Larry said, echoing the experience of many who have confronted addicts, “anytime we confronted him, we’d get in an argument.”

The harder they pushed, the more they pushed him away. Regarding his son’s tension with Maci, Larry added that she’s not helping.

She may mean well, for Ryan and for her son, but “We’ve learned what some of the triggers are … You use Bentley? That’s a trigger.”

Ryan later consulted with a lawyer about his custody arrangement, confessing that he had been in rehab for heroin addiction. Wow.

Maci, he claims “won’t even return my phone calls or text messages” … a far cry from the impression she appeared to have.

The lawyer agreed that given his history, Ryan would likely have to pass drug tests in order to get legal visitation with his kid.

Elsewhere, the end of Amber Portwood’s long, turbulent, controversial relationship with Matt Baier finally played out on screen.

She cut ties Baier for good following their trip to L.A. to film Marriage Boot Camp. She told a producer how that all went down:

“We went there to help our relationship … and it didn’t go well because he would lie. So I broke up with him one night.”

Amber, of course, is now pregnant with her second child.

At this stage, there was no mention of Andrew Glennon specifically, but she seemed pretty happy to single at that moment in time.

“I can talk to anybody I want, and they can call me,” she said. “When you’re single people just come out of the f–kin’ woodwork.”

Given that Glennon met Portwood while she and Baier were filming Marriage Boot Camp, many fans have wondered … how.

Was there overlap? Was there major drama?

She’s always downplayed that possibility, and at least for the time being, it appears that she might have been telling the truth.

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